This post is long overdue.
This year, I found myself with a Cybersocket nomination for Best Porn Star. No false modesty here, I am genuinely surprised! I can't begin to tell you how surreal it is to see my name listed with guys like Dean Monroe, Zeb Atlas, Adam Champ, Raphael Alencar, Connor Habib, Spencer Reed and others. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited and honored to be included but these guys are porn STARS and, let's be honest, I'm Carrie White on that list of competing prom queens.
In the four and a half years I've been performing, I have always thought of myself as a porn part-timer. My full-time job keeps me too busy for much socializing or making public appearances. I'm not a big drinker and I rarely go to clubs or bars. I'm usually asleep by 10:30-11:00 every night. What I enjoy (other than sex), is making films and posing for artists and photographers. I really love it. And I really love my fans and the people with whom I work.
It's trite to say "It's just an honor to be nominated" but it is an honor! Since I really do feel like I've already been given an award - both for this nomination and for still having a place at the porn table - I want to thank my fans, the bloggers, my scene partners, artists, photographers, directors, crew members, casting directors, and studios - especially Ray Dragon at Dragon Media, Devon Hunter at Anteros Media, the folks at Phoenixxx.com, photographers Mark Henderson, Jeff Eason, and the boys at Titan for putting me on the porn map.
I'm still not sure if I will be able to attend the ceremony on January 9, 2013. If I do, I will be the one in the Gunne Sax prom dress standing in the corner with William Katt and Betty Buckley, nervously covering my dirty pillows, searching the rafters for a precarious bucket of pig's blood.
Thank you for your support!